I usually write about my own more intentional explorations here, and not so much about what’s happening spontaneously. So I thought I would make an exception.
THE PAST AND FUTURE AS IMAGES
For a few weeks now, if I talk about the past or future, it’s even more clear that I am talking about mental images and stories. I am reporting on my own mental images and words, and not anything else.
Sometimes, a slight sensation accompanies these stories, and they are recognized as sensations, although I also know what emotion label I can put on them and that these sometimes reflect unresolved issues in me.
INVESTING ENERGY INTO TEMPORARY STORIES
I don’t know if it’s directly related, but over the last few weeks, I notice something else very clearly.
When I need to do something, I intentionally invest energy into that story so I can remember it, and when it’s no longer needed, it lingers for a few minutes. It creates an odd experience of parallel worlds for a little while.
For instance, we have a cat that’s been an indoor city cat for most of her life. Now that we are in the countryside, she is more outside but often under a bit of supervision. If she is gone, I create a mental image of her somewhere outside and me finding her, and my mind invests some energy into this image since it’s relatively important to me.
After she returns or I find her, I see her in front of me, and I also see my mental images of her roaming somewhere. She is here. And my images of her not being here is here. As I mentioned, the images fade after a few minutes, but for a little while, there is a clear and odd experience of parallel worlds.
This happens any time I create mental images of needing to do something or go somewhere, and that’s no longer necessary. The images retain some energy for a few minutes and then it fades, and there is that experience of parallel worlds.
FAMILIAR AND NEW
None of this is really new to me. It’s very familiar. It’s something I have explored and noticed for a long time.
And yet, something is different. I am more acutely aware of it, and it happens without any intention.
This may mean it’s more in my bones and more of a habit. And it likely also reflects another shift in me I am not completely aware of.
INTENTIONAL EXPLORATION VS SPONTANEOUS SHIFTS
I mentioned these two in the introduction and wanted to say a little bit more about their dynamic.
In a conventional sense, these two go hand in hand. Intentional explorations may lead to apparently spontaneous shifts, and spontaneous shifts may lead to further and intentional explorations.
And in a more real sense, this is all happening within and as what we are. We are capacity for both, and intentional explorations and spontaneous shifts happen within and as what we are. They are part of the creativity of the mind.
In a bigger sense, this is life taking these forms. Life engages in intentional explorations and produces spontaneous shifts.
And we can also say it’s all part of the play of the divine.
Past as images w some sensations
Also, images i invest energy in and then don’t need anymore, notice still has some energy for a few minutes
Eg finding Merlina and she comes back
Or needing to go somewhere and then don’t
Invest energy in to not forget, important to get it done
Bc brain fog, very easily and immediately forgotten unless do that
It may just be a passing phase. And it may just mean that
I don’t always report directly on what’s currently happening with my own explorations. , but thought I would include these two.
All the posts here indirectly reflect some sort of current exploration. And here, I thought I would report