When I look, I find I am something, nothing, everything, and between something and nothing.
SOMETHING
I am something.
In a conventional sense, I am this human self in the world.
I am the local eyes, ears, thoughts, and feelings of the universe.
I am a part of the seamless system of this living planet, the universe, and all of existence.
I am a holon in a much larger holarchy, and I am a holarchy for smaller holons.
NOTHING
When I look, I also find that my more fundamental nature is capacity for the world as it appears to me.
I am nothing allowing and making itself into something, into the world as it appears to me.
I can also say that my nature appears inherently empty of any separate self. There is no fundamental self here, either within the realm of stories (systems, holarchies) or in my own direct first-person experience, at least not one that’s happening as a fundamental I with a fundamental Other.
EVERYTHING
When I look, I find that the world to me – this human self, the wider world, and anything else – happens within and as my sense fields. It all happens within and as what I am.
To me, it’s all happening as oneness and what I am is this oneness.
In that sense, in my own first-person experience, I am everything.
It’s inevitable and, in some ways unremarkable, since all content of experience to me happens within and as what I am.
BETWEEN NOTHING AND SOMETHING
I also find I am something between nothing and something.
I am what my experience of the world – of this human self, the wider world, and anything else – happens within and as.
I am all of these appearances, and I notice they are like a dream – they happen within and as what thoughts can call consciousness.
To me, all content of experience happens somewhere between nothing and something.
INITIAL OUTLINE
- Something
- a human self in the world
- appearances in the sense fields
- Nothing
- capacity, what allows it all, makes itself into all
- Everything in between
- all of it
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I can also say that my nature appears inherently empty of any separate self. There is no fundamental self here, either in a conventional sense or in my own direct experience, at least not one that’s inherently separate from anything else or happening within some part of my field of experience.
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EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN
I also find I am everything in between.
I am what my experience of the world – of this human self, the wider world, and anything else – happens within and as.
I am all of these appearances, and I notice they are like a dream – they happen within and as what thoughts can call consciousness.
The world, to me, happens as a realm somewhere in between nothing and something.
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