Here is one on our perception of doership.
In the world, it’s important for me to take responsibility for my actions, words, and choices.
It helps me live in a slightly more mature way. It’s more in integrity. And it helps me see things about myself more accurately which may lead to changes. (There is a lot of room for improvement.)
If I don’t take responsibility, I can notice it through some of the telltale signs (blame, victimhood, etc.) and I can use it to find the fear behind it. What’s the scary story? What am I afraid would happen if I took responsibility for my own words, choices, and actions in this situation? What’s the identity that’s threatened?
THIS HUMAN SELF IS LIVING ITS OWN LIFE
I can then find myself as capacity for the world as it appears to me. I can find myself as that which the world, to me, happens within and as. This is what I more fundamentally am to myself.
Here, I notice that all content of my experience lives its own life – this human self, thoughts, feelings, choices, actions, other people, ecosystems, the wider world. It’s all living its own life. It’s all happening on its own.
Within stories, I can tell myself that everything has infinite causes stretching back to the beginning of time (if there is any) and the widest extent of space (if there is any).
And in my immediate noticing, it’s all living its own life.
IN DAILY LIFE
In daily life, there are both.
I aim at taking responsibility for my own choices, actions, and life – and don’t always succeed. (Any time I go into a stressful story, it’s a sign I am not taking responsibility as much as I could.) This helps me live with a bit more integrity and it helps me mature a bit more.
And I notice that this human self is happening on its own like anything else. This takes some of the stress out of it and there is less interference from the idea of fundamentally being a doer.
SHIFTS HIGHLIGHTING THIS
As I have written about elsewhere, in an awakening process, there are often shifts that highlight certain aspects of what we are.
In this case, I experienced several shifts around fifteen years ago that brought the “this human self is living its own life” aspect to the foreground. These were shifts into a stronger disidentification with any content of experience, and they made it blindingly clear that this human self is happening on its own. (There were many similar types of shifts during that period.)
And these shifts have helped me notice it later on, even when this aspect is less obviously in the foreground.
- Perception of a sense of doership when we notice our nature
- conventional sense
- this human self, take responsibility
- when notice
- shifts that highlight features
- conventional sense