Why have I written less here recently?
There may be many reasons.
WHY I WROTE LESS
I spent half a year in Norway getting my parent’s house ready for sale, and since I have limited energy, I chose to focus on that task – and also take the opportunity to enjoy Norway – and do less of other activities.
I have written more in the two “brief notes” categories – Brief notes on healing and awakening and occasionally personal things and Reflections on society, politics, and nature. Sometimes, it’s easier and quicker to put something there rather than make it into a regular article.
I have had stronger brain fog lately. Some of it is from covid last year. Some is from CFS. And some is from my diet. (Which is generally good and occasionally fun but not optimal.)
A part of me got slightly bored from feeling that I tend to repeat myself here. It started to feel less fresh. Maybe the break can be a kind of gear change?
In any case, I am now back in the Andes so it may be that I’ll find myself writing more again. We’ll see.
I DON’T REALLY KNOW
The honest answer is that I may guess why I have written less and if I’ll write more (and also if I’ll channel the writing energy into a book instead of articles), and I don’t know any of it. I find myself doing one thing more, and then another.
Even if I have guesses about why, I don’t really know, it’s life locally unfolding and taking all these forms.
DON’T KNOW IS NOT AN EXCUSE FOR PASSIVITY
In writing this, I notice a tendency in me. Something in me likes to use “don’t know” as an excuse for passivity, something in me has that tendency. (It may tie into issues of not wanting to be here, of not wanting to be visible, and also not speaking up and standing up for myself.)
I would like to not do that. I don’t want to use it as an excuse for passivity and allow life to unfold without, in an ordinary sense, taking charge and steering things.
DON’T KNOW & TAKING CHARGE
Yes, life unfolds and what’s happening locally – including through and as this human self – is an expression of movements within the infinitely larger whole.
At the same time, that unfolding can take the form of this human self taking charge and taking the steering wheel in an ordinary and healthy way.
The divine is also me taking charge of my life.
The divine is also me learning to be an even better steward of my life.
That’s the medicine for me right now.