Own dream: Going down into the ground, meeting fears, and enjoying the process

I walk through the shopping center in Ski, Norway, and see a sign saying: “Calvin & Hobbes SALE”. I decide to check it out, and see that I have to go down a very steep and long escalator. I can’t even see the bottom. I notice some old fear of heights but tell myself “I’ll do it anyway” and don’t hesistate in going down. The journey down is quick and over almost before I know what happens. At the bottom is a wide, short, and low train car. I go inside with a few other people and we immediately take off through some tunnels. Here too, I notice some of my old fears – this time claustrophobia – but I decide to just enjoy it. We arrive in daylight, at a place that looked like a modern version of an old-fashioned amusement part. There are also many fun stores there. (It felt a bit like Fisherman’s Wharf in San Francisco or Pike Place Market in Seattle.)

The essence of this dream seems to be going down (into unprocessed materials in myself?), having some old fears come up, doing it without hesitation, and enjoying it.

Why the mall in Ski? Because I have spent a lot of time there. I actually enjoy being there. (I love nature and old towns much more, but it’s fun now and then.)

Why Calvin & Hobbes? I have seen several Calvin & Hobbes cartoons posted on social media lately, read an article about the philosophical aspects of the cartoon, and also know that the creator has just come out with something new. I love Calvin & Hobbes.

Why the fears of heights and claustrophobia? Because I have some of that in waking life.

Why was the journey quicker than expected? Not sure. I guess it doesn’t take much time to delve into deep unprocessed materials these days. It feels like slipping into the ocean.

Why the train car? I am not sure. It’s something that takes me through deep tunnels inside the earth. It had a driver, which may be a kind of guide. (A psychopomp.)

Why the amusement park? I love those old-fashioned amusement parks, and places like Fisherman’s Wharf in San Francisco and Pike Place Market in Seattle. To me, going into unprocessed materials in me feels a bit like going into an amusement park. There are all sorts of weird and interesting things there, and it’s fascinating and has an element of fun.

Why this dream this morning? Perhaps because I had a massage to release old tension in my shoulders yesterday, and that tends to bring up a lot of old material. I noticed some hopelessness, feeling paralyzed, and survival fears coming up, related to growing up with my birth family. I also received Vortex Healing (Miji mantra) to release what’s most entrenched in my system. All of that brought up things, and I did enjoy swimming in it and noticing what was there.

Of course, going into unprocessed material is often not so enjoyable. I have been doing it for decades now, and recognize many of the patterns and issues, so that’s perhaps why it now feels more like entering an amusement park.

This dream may be showing and reminding me of that aspect of the process.

Image by me and Midjourney

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