I meet myself, the version that continued with art. He is helping me and a small group of other people with something. He is confident, comfortable in his own skin, relaxed, has fire and passion, and is alive.
This dream came after we channeled aliveness for ourselves in the Vortex Healing class yesterday night. I especially felt that Aliveness combined with Harmonics for my brain and nervous system (CNS, PNS) was very helpful for me. After the CFS came back strongly 15+ years ago, I have noticed a “hole” in the energy system of my brain, especially the frontal lobes. There is a lack of fullness and aliveness there, and my system seemed hungry for Aliveness and Harmonics channeled there.
I woke up early after this dream and felt more like my old self. There is more taste of that aliveness, fire, and zest for life.
This particular combination of Vortex tools may not be a miracle cure, but judging from my experience so far, it will likely give my system something it needs.
There is more to this dream, of course. My life and passion was art in my teens and early twenties. It brought up fire and passion, centeredness, groundedness, confidence, purpose, and so on. It organized my life in a wonderful and beautiful way.
When I left it – to study psychology at UiO – it was difficult and painful, it felt like severing a limb from my body. It’s still painful when I am reminded of it. I suspect that if I had continued, I would still have that passion and alignment I experienced back then, and the dream reflects that.
Instead, I felt that my life went off course and got disorganized and in shambles, and eventually led me to a much stronger CFS.
That’s my suspicion, although I don’t know. Also, what happened has infinite causes going back to the beginning of time and out to the widest extent of existence, so it’s not a “me” here in isolation giving my life this course. It’s a local expression of movements of the larger whole.
The drawing is a self-portrait in charcoal I made when I was sixteen, early on in the oneness shift, and without having much experience with drawing.