I keep noticing this world floating in infinity and as infinity.
This whole world as it appears to me. The sunlight dancing on the wall. The leaves moving in the wind. The sound of my wife getting ready for the day. The taste of the banana, cashews, and spice tea. The screen. The fingers moving. The sensations of this body. Any ideas of anything – the world, me, others.
The sounds, smells, sights, sensations, thoughts.
A FLOATING WORLD
It’s all a floating world. It’s floating in infinity.
It’s all made up of this awake space.
Awakeness takes all these fleeting forms.
And it’s all happening in infinity, in a kind of space without any inside or outside.
AWAKENESS FORMING ITSELF INTO MY WORLD
This awakeness takes the form of insides and outsides, time, past and future and present, any sense of a me or a doer or observer. It stretches as soon as further space is imagined. It’s always big enough for even the largest space imaginations. It always stretches to match even the longest time imaginations.
This awakeness takes the form of what a thought labels this human self, who comes and goes.
This awakeness takes the form of the experiences at night of this human self sleepy and lying in bed, and then it takes the form of this morning and the morning light. It takes the form of Oslo, London, Barichara, that seem to appear here at different times.
This awakeness is not a special awakeness. It appears inherent to what I am, and it’s what I imagine any “conscious being” is to themselves whether they consciously notice or not.
A GROUNDLESS GROUND
This awakeness is my nature, it’s a ground of being, it’s a ground of the world as it appears to me.
Capacity is even more of a groundless ground of it all.
My nature is capacity for it all – awakeness and all it forms itself into.
Everything is capacity taking all of these forms.
Capacity takes the form of awakeness forming itself into the world as it appears here.
NOT SPECIAL
None of this is special. It’s what we – all “conscious beings” – already are to ourselves.
Even the noticing of it is not very special.
It’s what we already are most familiar with, and it’s what’s most intimate to what we are. We are already intimately familiar with it, whether we consciously notice or not.
When we consciously notice, it can be both astounding (to our habitual mental patterns) and immensely familiar (to our nature, what we are) at the same time.
The noticing itself is not necessarily that difficult. Especially if our attention is guided by someone familiar with the terrain, and we use some structured noticing from the Big Mind process, Kiloby Inquires, Headless experiments, and similar approaches.
The actual work tends to be in (a) keeping noticing it, (b) exploring how to live from and as it in daily life, and (c) inviting and allowing our human self to transform and realign within and as this noticing.