When I write there, I am very aware that “I” refers to slightly different things at different times, sometimes even in the same sentence!
WHAT “I” REFERS TO
So what do I mean when I use the word “I”?
Sometimes, it just refers to this human self and his activities, as it usually does in human language.
Sometimes, it refers to what’s more really here – the fullness and emptiness of what I am, that which the world – as it appears to me – happens within and as.
WHAT’S ACCURATE AND WHAT WORKS
When “I” refers to this human self, it may not be the most accurate, but it’s familiar and it works.
If I were to use a more accurate language, it would often sound a bit contrived, although I do sprinkle that in as well.
FLUIDITY BETWEEN THE TWO
I actually love using “I” to refer to one or the other and have some fluidity in how I use the word.
Why? Because it reflects what’s here.
Both are here. This human self is here, doing his things. This awake space is here taking the form of everything that’s happening, including the activities of this human self.
There is no clear dividing line. There is no dividing line at all, apart from what’s found in a mental image.
WHAT LOVES THE FLUIDITY?
So what is it that loves this fluidity?
It’s this human self with his inclinations, orientations, and having been shaped by my nature noticing itself for a few decades now.
It’s my nature – this awake space, taking the form of this human self and the wider world.
It’s capacity, this groundless ground, taking the form of awakeness and everything is awakeness forms itself into, including this human self with his inclinations and love for this fluidity.
It’s all of it since this is all parts of a seamless whole.
It’s none of it since words can only point and can’t capture anything.