In a recent group healing, my partner and I channeled Divine Mother and this made me curious about mothers. There are several layers of mothers in the world, there is a mother that’s not in the world, my experiences with Amma, and more.
MOTHERS IN THE WORLD
We have several mothers in the world. These are layers within larger systems.
Our human mother strongly forms us at a human level. She is our first and most immediate model for how to be as a human being. In my case, she is not here for much longer.
This living planet is another mother, as real and even more all-encompassing. We are all temporary and local expressions of this vast and amazing living system, which gives us life and sustains us.
Existence as a whole, this immense seamless system, is a yet more encompassing mother. Every little thing – in us and our lives – are the result of movements within this larger whole. Everything has infinite causes going back to the beginning of time (if there is any) and the widest extent of existence (if there is a widest extent).
As this human self in the world, I am brought to life, sustained, and parented by all of these mothers in this nested world.
My relationship with each of these – consciously and from the different parts of me – has a central role in how I am as a human being. It has a central role in my well-being and sense of support, being loved, and connection.
WITHOUT PARENTS / A MORE FUNDAMENTAL PARENT
And yet, for all their vital importance, these are within the content of experience. They come and go, just like this human self.
None of them are my real parent.
In my own immediate noticing, my more fundamental nature is – what a thought may call – consciousness and capacity.
It’s the consciousness I am, forming itself into the experience of all content of experience – including this human self, my physical mom, this living planet, and existence as a whole.
It’s capacity for all of it – this awake space forming itself into an always-changing experience of it all.
Here, I am without parents. My physical parents are not my parents.
Or, I could say that consciousness is my parent, the parent of (my experience of) this human self and the world. Capacity is the parent of (my experience of) this human self and the wider world.
AMMA
In November 2023, something else came into my relationship with moms at different levels of this nested world.
In my life in the world, the rug was pulled out from under me again, as so often over these last 15+ years. Yet another beginning that seemed so promising was falling apart. I asked my main VH teacher for advice, he suggested it was karmic in nature and that I asked Amma for help. Being deeply humbled by this repeating pattern, I did – with sincerity and single focus.
This led to a three-hour profound and transforming experience – a guided tour – unlike anything I had experienced before. (See initial post and an update from earlier this year.)
Since then, Amma is viscerally here as everything – from capacity to consciousness to energies to the physical world, including every aspect of this local and temporary human self. She is here, adding a flavor to it all.
She is also here when this human self invites in healing for others or himself.
Note: I should clarify that to me, Amma is all of existence from capacity to consciousness to energies to physical forms. She is not, so much, her physical form although, of course, that too. I also haven’t met physical expression yet.
INITIAL ONENESS SHIFT
In the initial oneness shift, at age sixteen, it was clear that existence as a whole is the more fundamental and actual parents of this human self and the world as a whole.
The human parents of my human self were still important, of course, but their role was seen in a much bigger context – one that turned everything inside out and upside down.