I was asked this question yesterday and couldn’t give an immediate answer.
As usual, it depends on a lot of things.
What do you mean by God?
What does it mean to trust God?
And what parts of me are you referring to?
WHAT DO WE MEAN BY GOD?
Do you mean life or all of existence?
Or do you mean a segment of all there is? Perhaps an image of a higher being? Light and love? Something wise and loving guiding our life? Something else?
WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO TRUST GOD?
Does it mean to trust that everything, no matter what happens, is fundamentally OK?
That I can get what I ask for, or something better? (According to what definition?)
That something wise and loving is guiding my life or life in general?
WHAT PARTS OF ME ARE YOU REFERRING TO?
Do you mean my conscious view? (Which is just the tip of the iceberg, not always what I perceive and live from, and – in some ways – the least interesting.)
Do you mean all the different parts of me? (Some may trust life as it is, and many are likely caught up in fear and fearful stories and don’t trust life so much.)
A PRAGMATIC APPROACH
As usual, I tend to be overly sincere in trying to answer these questions, and a bit of a party pooper if you want a simple answer. Personally, I find these kinds of explorations more interesting.
I also like to take a pragmatic approach to these questions, so what’s the pragmatic approach here?
First, what do I mean by God? For me, it’s all of existence, life, what is as it is.
What do I mean by trust? A starting point may be to take it as trusting that life is OK as is.
How does it look to trust life? And how can I deepen into that trust?
HOW TO DEEPEN IN TRUST?
In my experience, parts of me don’t trust life when they are caught up in unloved fear and unexamined fearful stories. These are contractions that live their own life, perceive the world a particular way, and color how I – as a whole and as a human being in the world – perceive and live my life. They are always here coloring perceptions and decisions, and they are sometimes more obviously triggered – often by certain life situations and events.
So one answer is to find healing in my relationship to triggers in life and what’s triggered in me. Can I befriend the contractions in me? Get to know them? Give them what they want and need? Fulfill the sense of lack they are coming from? (This tends to happen naturally when I recognize what they need, the lack, and rest with it.)
What’s the unexamined stressful story (or stories) behind the contraction? What do I find if I examine this more in-depth and find what’s genuinely more true for me? (This may happen easily and naturally, and sometimes it helps to engage in a more structured inquiry.)
Can I recognize the nature of the contraction? What happens when I rest in that noticing? What happens when I invite the contraction to rest in noticing its own nature?