Reality is what awakens to itself.
And reality already allows – and shows up as – what’s here, whatever it is: these emotions, these thoughts, this experience, this world.
So I can explore this a few different ways.
(a) To explore if reality already allows what’s here, I can ask myself:
It is true this – this emotion, thought, resistance, pain, experience – is not already allowed?
Is it true it’s not already awareness?
(b) And I can identify resistant thoughts, write them down, and take them to inquiry.
What are my fears and thoughts about what’s here?
What do I complain about? Wish was different? Hope for?
The first is an exploration of God’s will, what’s already here. The second is an exploration of my will. And my will – thoughts taken as true – may then be revealed as God’s will along with everything else.
I may first notice that reality already allows what’s here, and then find myself as it – that which already allows what’s here, including images of me and I, identifying with these images or not, and anything else.
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– reality already allows what’s here, notice it’s already allowed
– notice resistant thoughts, inquiry into
Reality already allows what’s there – this experiences, this world as it’s presented to me.
By inquiring into my resistant thoughts, my beliefs, there is a more conscious alignment with reality (or not).
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I keep coming back to this:
Reality already allows what’s here – these emotions, this pain, these thoughts. This world, as it is here.
(a) I can notice what’s here is already allowed. I can notice it as awareness. Even as God’s will.
It is true this – this experience, emotion, pain, thought, resistance – is not already allowed?
Is it true it’s not already awareness?
(b) I can identify resistant thoughts, write them down, and take them to inquiry. What do I find?
What are my fears and thoughts about what’s here?
What do I complain about? Wish was different? Hope for?
I also notice that (i) at first, I may notice that reality (awareness) already allows what’s here, including my images of me and I and a tendency to take these as true and identify as them or not. Then, (ii) I may find myself as that which allows what’s here, including any images of a me and I, including any tendency to take these as true and identify as them or not.
And I notice that if reality – what’s here – is God’s will, then my resistant thoughts – my complaints – are my will. And that’s included in reality, in God’s will.
As I inquire into these resistant thoughts, I may come to see them as innocent, and as God’s will. Even the thought “I” may be recognized as (a) a resistant thought if taken as true, (b) creating stress and discomfort if taken as true, (c) taken as true through innocence, in an innocent attempt to find safety, and (d) as God’s will whether it’s here or not, and taken as true or not.