I am with BC, a former girlfriend. We are somehow between and outside of different ways of being – incarnate, disincarnate, and so on. She is my guide through all of those states and ways of existence. We have a very good conversation. She says I am about in the middle of my process when it comes to wisdom. I notice a few things… First, the immense love between us. It’s a Big Heart love, the love that is part of our nature. I notice the contrast between this love and the more human love mixed up with desire, attachments, confusion, and so on. I also recognize clearly how much is left for me in terms of maturing, healing, and wisdom. Her presence, with her clarity and wisdom, puts all of this in contrast and makes it more clear to me.
This dream is bordering on what Jung would call a big dream. In waking life, BC is a former girlfriend I haven’t been in contact with for several years. I admire her for her unusual clarity and wisdom, combined with humor, kindness, and gutsiness. Although she was also struggling with a lot of trauma, as so many of us. In the dream, she is a guide, a female guide. Her wisdom and stability in and as Big Heart makes what’s not that stand out to me more clearly. Mainly, the more human love we had between us mixed up with human dynamics, and what’s left for me in terms of deepening, clarifying, maturing, and finding wisdom.
Why is this dream coming now?
She came to mind last night before sleeping, with a curiosity about her life now and how she is doing.
I am definitely in transition these days, both in my inner and outer life, although I don’t know exactly what’s happening or where it’s going. (If we are honest, we probably never really know, it’s always ultimately a mystery.)
As a human being and using conventional measures, there is a lot further to go for me in terms of healing, maturing, clarifying, and so on.
Yesterday or the day before, I started another article on a similar topic: As humanity, we are in the shallows in terms of exploring the ocean of all of this. Existence has so much more to discover about itself through and as us. It’s an ongoing process.
Why her? Why someone from my waking life?
Likely because I know this clarity and wisdom in her and admire it, and she is the perfect one to remind me of the contrast between Big Heart and the more messy human love. Neither is wrong, of course, and Big Heart takes the form of the messy human love and everything else. And it is a good reminder.
INITIAL NOTES FROM IMMEDIATELY AFTER WAKING
- bc, she is my guide, in this life and in disembodied life
- We have a very good conversation
- I can see her wisdom
- She says I am about in the middle of my process when it comes to wisdom
- A lot of love between us
- Big heart love
- I recognize more clearly how much is left for me in terms of maturing, healing, wisdom
- It comes to the foreground strongly
- summary…
- Ex love, my guide, I am about in the middle of the process when it comes to wisdom, big heart very strong when we are both here together
- We are somewhere between all ways of being – between lives, incarnation etc