It’s better if I control my evolution.
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Is it true?
No.
What happens, how do you react, when you have that belief?
I feel a need to control my evolution.
I try to find strategies to control my evolution.
I do inquiry with the aim of moving ahead further, clearing up obstacles.
There is a sense of pushing.
I compare myself with images of where I thought I would be, and were I imagine others are.
I am impatient, even feel a bit desperate.
I try to control, and realize I cannot.
I feel hopeless, tired, exhausted.
There is a sense of struggle.
Who would you be without that thought?
Trust.
I trust that what’s here is OK.
Peace with what is.
Curiosity.
Turnarounds
It’s better if I control me.
It’s better if I identify and inquire into my own beliefs, especially about my own evolution.
(It’s more peaceful. It’s my business. It’s what I can do.)
It’s better if my evolution controls me.
It does already, so it’s better if I notice and join.
I can try to “pretend myself beyond my evolution” but it doesn’t really work.
When I “pretend myself beyond my evolution”, I miss out of what’s really here.
Evolution – life, the universe, Spirit – may be more wise than I am.
It’s worse if I control my evolution.
If I try to control my evolution, I create frustration for myself.
I cannot know what’s next in my evolution. If I did, it would be because it’s already here.
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Additional beliefs
I can control my evolution.
I want to control my evolution.
I should be further ahead.
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This is great for me to look at more too – Thank you 🙂
In TA 1 I love this: “It’s more peaceful. It’s my business. It’s what I can do.”
For TA 2: ‘It’s better if my evolution controls me.’ – This feels deeply true and relieving, and brings me to a place of humility, surrender, trust and quiet joy. There’s also more sense of balance, gratitude and willingness to serve.
For TA 3: ‘It’s worse if I control my evolution’ I see how trying to control my evolution is driven by ego wanting to ‘get somewhere’ or be ‘better than…’, and also seeing what is right now as ‘not good enough’.
There is a real sense of lack, which hurts and feels frightening and exhausting.
Whenever I try to control my evolution I notice it feels forced and futile, and there is little space for ego to be met with compassion, understanding and love.
Thank you 🙂
Thank you! I especially liked “and there is little space for ego to be met with compassion, understanding and love.” I notice that too.